An Uncooked Story


It’s Sunday, and so often I come here to write because I want to inspire you. Maybe I get a rise out of it. Maybe if I can inspire you, I’ll feel inspired myself. After all, I usually learn by teaching, or I think by writing. The keys under my fingers are the processors, somehow connected way down to invisible parts of me.

I come in here, and I don’t want to be accused of the unholy. I want always and only to point to truth. I’m desperate for truth to transform me, not so I’ll look like a godly leader, but rather so I won’t rip my own kids’ heads off when they disobey. I want to be transformed because the love of Christ is a healer, and without it, there is a kind of despair through which I don’t think I could live. It’s not a joke. This is no devotional. Without him, I starve. Where the kingdom of this world doesn’t tie me up, I’ll put myself in chains.

“The Lord sets the prisoners free; the Lord opens the eyes of the blind” (Psalm 146:8 ESV).

There is a way in which the jesusy folk tend to write (I do it, too), and that way feels so disconnected from my real life that I could scream. I don’t feel disconnected with my Jesus, no, but I do feel disconnected with the pull inside me to sound this way or that – or with the pull of what others are doing so successfully to point to the kingdom of God. Maybe some perspectives are done; they’re processed, cooked up, and plated well. My perspective is still raw. I’ve barely cleaned these veggies.

My everyday life doesn’t sound or look much like a devotional, and by the read of your responses to my newsletter, your lives don’t either. We all want to be okay enough to rise above the muck to the realm of holy speak. We all want to un-mire our minds from the grit and tangle, to know the common language of the peace-filled godly masses.

Today, I think of my own prisons, and I think of the prisoners in the Elkhart County Jail. Real people, real pain, real bars, real transformation. I ask you: what is freedom when you’re in jail?

But if I write flip, as I often start to do, I don’t feel legit. Were I to boil it all down to flip sayings about grace and forgiveness, it wouldn’t pierce my own heart anymore. I can’t write without a pierced heart, I reckon, or I can, but it bores me to death, lulls me to sleep – and please tell me you get bored, too.

What I believe are those of you who have responded to my newsletter or to my book with your un-answerable questions and your desirous stories. When, together, we can have hard-flung hope for healing and redemption, then I know we’re moving in honesty in the right direction as the church.

An Announcement!

c9ea4423-adfb-4d17-b929-c4068cbb7f75For now, I am living into another book, not the writing of it but rather the unfurling of character and scene. Our lives are mostly not stories we write. For today, though, I do give you what I’ve written of mine, the raw of it, and I hope if you haven’t read Wild in the Hollow, you’ll take this chance to get it cheap and share it with your friends.

(The beginning of this post is such an odd lead for my original intention to simply let you know that my book is on sale today. My pulpit slips out at the weirdest times. I just rolled my eyes at myself. For today, the eBook version is only $1.99. That’s what I thought I sat down here to announce to you.)

$1.99, I tell you!

If you have a nook, Wild in the Hollow is only $1.99 at Barnes & Noble.

If you have a kindle, Wild in the Hollow is only $1.99 through Amazon.

If you don’t have a kindle, you can download the app for free here for most all your devices.

Have mercy, and feel free to share. Click below!

Tweet: Wild in the Hollow is about desire & mystery, home-sickness & where you belong. It’s only $1.99 today on kindle!

About me


What’s Up: New Year and a New Plan
January 13, 2017
The Amnesia of Home: a Wild in the Hollow Guest Post from Tammy Hendricksmeyer
December 07, 2015
Wild in the Hollow Book Club Video: Chapters 1 and 2
September 14, 2015
Celebrating Wild in the Hollow
August 04, 2015
Do it.
January 21, 2014
Revolution: A Blessing Over My Own Book
October 23, 2013
Begotten: Notes from The Creed
October 15, 2013
The Woo
September 25, 2013
On the Establishment
March 22, 2013


Reply January 10, 2016

Oh, thanks for letting us know about the book being on sale. I just went and bought it for my Kindle. I belong to a site called bookbub and get deals on books very often, but yours was not offered today. I know I will enjoy reading your book since I already enjoy reading your blog. Thank you for sharing your life and your musings. God bless and may your New Year be filled with goodness.

Reply January 10, 2016

Thank you, Amber. I've got it tucked away on my kindle now. So happy to get it.

Ashley Hales
Reply January 11, 2016

Ah, how much do I love that you roll your eyes at yourself? Also: so happy your book is on sale.

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